And I finally pushed myself enough to go for a run/walk tonight. I always feel better that I did. But this week I have been an emotional mess. I just want to cry every day. I have one more days of work before I can have a day off after 7 days in a row. I am drained to the max at this point. My kitty Angel has been having tummy troubles also and I worry since he is 15. I have had him since he was 3 months old so he is like my child. I am hoping it clears up with this new food I bought him. He has no loss of an appetite so I am not sure.
Doctor Who week has been brightening my week though and the 50th special on Saturday! I am to excited to see it and then on monday in the theater :) So this is a start back to my exercise routine. I will be forcing myself again tomorrow, and for a bit longer. Then eventually it will be something I want to do all the time again.
Going to get back on track!
I have not posted on this blog in a while. I had been doing well up until a little over a month ago. I have lost track and been kind of getting into a really bad depression. With that comes with not caring about anything basically. I had stopped eating bread for a bit before I got to that point. Now I am like whatever who cares. I had been seeing a difference in how I felt when I was limiting my carbs and just eating more protein. It was great, but life problems got in the way of my positive lifestyle. The biggest problem right now is how negative my job environment has gotten lately. It just kind of makes life dreadful since I am there the majority of my time. I am just basically tired of it all. But I am not going to let myself give up again. What I have accomplished so far has made me very proud of myself. This is a never ending battle with myself. I just have to keep going there is no time limit.
I had a pretty good day!
Well I finally had an interview at a salon. I didn’t really want a job doing hair but it is what I have now. I change my mind about this all the time. Sometime I really want to do hair others I don’t. But I am feel a bit more confident in myself, and it is a different area. So if I get this job it will be a different sort of clientele than where I was in Central Florida. I am pretty confident after the second part of my interview I will be offered the job. If not well…oh well. At least I looked really good today. haha I bought a cute shirt for the interview. So I can’t wait til tomorrow is over and I know what is what.
I am so exhausted, but I don’t feel like going to sleep. This has been a long week. I feel so drained from being around people most of the week. Well not living alone as I have been. I also haven’t exercised at all. Yeah go me. I feel like crap! I know once my Mom and my puppy leave I will miss her and be sad. But I will see them again next weekend when I go to Central Florida w/ my dad. I am excited to sleep in my bed:D I miss my bed and stuff terribly. I have not moved all my stuff because that costs to much. The best thing that can happen next is I get a damn job. I think that I would be so insanely happy if I just got a job. Because I feel the most at peace with myself at times that I have ever felt. I am able to talk myself down of some of the negative nonsense I tell myself. The peace comes and goes. I am just tired of being unhappy. So I am making a real effort to not let myself be unhappy all the time:)