Yay did day 2 of 30 Day Shred and then 40 minutes of walking on my treadmill. I did a little jog here and there and Mindless Self Indulgence really kept me going. It has been quite a number of years I have listened to them, they sure do pump me up on the boring treadmill. I was going to go outside to walk but it started raining as I walked out. So instead of just saying I am not going to do anything else I pushed myself to dust off that boring machine. I am very glad I did, it was quite a good time :D
I plan on just posting every time I exercise. lol No one looks at this really anyway, I am doing this for my own accountability. Now I am just relaxing with the some St. Vincent, can’t wait to see her Monday! Her live shows look amazing. I haven’t been to a show since late August, so I am excited. Yay for a lovely Saturday evening :)
I feel like I am always starting from square one. I am so mad at myself for gaining part of the weight I had lost the last couple years. I need to cement into my head if I eat shitty and don’t exercise that I am going to screw myself up. I don’t even forget that it I just let myself spiral out of control when I am having really bad bouts with my depression. I forget how good it feels when I eat better and exercise. I forget how much confidence I gained when I lost weight. This year really sucked the life out of me. I left my job for another thinking I would do better, little did I know that I’d feel even worse at the new job. I don’t think it is the jobs really it is me, or at least it is partially me. I think that I ruin things. Now I am here looking for another job AGAIN, well for the last couple months. Hope something will happen soon.
I am going to try and be positive again. I just started day one of 30 Day Shred. I think it will push me back into my exercise again, I am eating healthier, noting everything in myfitnesspal for the last 2 months. I even try and put the crap food I eat, just to make myself aware. I just am trying to get the exercise thing regular again. When I started this in 2012 I started with the 30 Day Shred and that really worked. From there I tried other exercises, I was really enjoying running and weights. I will get there again and this time I will not stop. This is something I have to keep up with for the rest of my life. I don’t have the luxury of ever just saying I will eat whatever. Right now my goal is to lose at least 30 pounds by the end of December. I think it can be done and even if I don’t lose the pounds I hope to lose the inches. I want to look a bit thinner for pictures that will be taken for my nephew’s baptism, my brother asked me to be the godmother to my oncoming nephew Luca. I am really not into religion at all, but I love my family so I kind of wanted to do it. So onward to my goals!